Monday, August 01, 2005

Grateful for the Many Good Things!

Lest you think all I do is whine, I am incredibly grateful for SO many good things!

I'm so grateful for the wonderful family and friends who support me so kindly and more wonderfully than I could ever imagine. They give so much time and energy and understanding and I am so grateful.

I'm so grateful for life itself. What a miracle it is to awaken in the morning and savor the well-being and comfort of feeling ok and being in my own, comfy bed! To feel "normal", even for just a while, as I DO now each morning is a great, great joy - and the feeling of "okay-ness" lasts longer each passing week.

I'm so grateful for increasing strength and stamina. I did 50 yards of JOGGING (under supervision - honest!) and it was wonderful fun. I was both laughing and crying for joy at the same time! I have promised Dr. K that I will stick with the bike, elliptical and pool, however...don't want to wreck all his hard work on the ankle!

I'm so grateful that my workmates have adapted so many things to help me and make things easier. Vanderbilt has been wonderful and I am blessed to have such great colleagues.

I'm so grateful to be able to exercise again! Working out at the rec center is such a joy and blessing. Lifting those weights, doing the elliptical, riding the bike - they all give such a feeling of normalcy and goodness and I'm so grateful. In the fall when school starts, I know I won't be able to do as much as I do now, but I hope to have gained the strength to keep up with the demands of work effectively. I will still be working out, but I know I'll have to scale it back for a while and get my work stamina up to snuff.

It's only about 3 weeks now till the students return and SCHOOL STARTS - keep your fingers crossed that I'll be ready!!!


Blogger Angie Antkowiak said...

Pam, we are so grateful for YOU and the sharing of your personal struggle! You are a true miracle and everyone knows that...unfortunately it seems as though being showered with praise and such lofty titles may make it that much harder for you to let your guard down and feel what you are really feeling. I've no doubt that sometimes you feel like you are SUPPOSED to continue being a miracle in everything that you do...but we are all human, you know? Perhaps the little bumps in the road that you sometimes still come across are God's way of saying "Slow down, enjoy the moment, laugh some, and don't forget to cry some...and let people carry you when you need it instead of trying desperately to carry yourself..." Its hard when you want to accomplish so much, especially for others, but you must remember that what you do for YOU is the best thing you could do for others! And when you show us your sadness and frustration, that is a great gift too, for it helps us to understand more fully the true meaning of being human, of what it means to struggle and to work hard, and ultimately the true meaning of victory.

We are all blessed that you have opened your heart to share ALL of this with us, I know that I have benefited immensely from your experience and from your prescence in my life. Keep on keepin' on, Pam! Just be who you are...because that's who we love!

And I just can't WAIT for VCC to start again! YIPPEE!

Love to you all,

8:20 AM  
Blogger AandH said...

Hi Pam. I just wanted to let you know that I keep printing out your messages for my family and we are still rooting for you! Keep up your great spirit.
Love, Audra

9:27 AM  
Blogger Jan said...

Pam: Angie said it all! This long hot summer has given all of us time to reflect on the great gift of your friendship, leadership, and musicianship. The fact that you have been returned to us with smile intact continues to make us believe in miracles and to be grateful for all of the brilliant minds and loving hearts that helped make the miracle happen. We anticipate the beginning of a new semester and fully expect you to take hold of the stick and make us better than we ever expect ourselves to be. Read Angie's comments again and tattoo them on your soul. We love you....Jan (N)

10:25 PM  
Blogger Dave & Nancy Estes Park said...

by god angie does say it all! LOVE to all.

7:06 PM  

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